At marriage counseling today I brought up the conversation that my husband and I had in the car yesterday. I thought it was important to our relationship and a sign of a little bit of progress.
Why do I feel so exposed now? Was it too much to mention that? I didn't think so when I did. I once again feel raw and fragile, and I want to hide...and cut...and feel better.
It's going to be a rough 12 to 10 shift tonight. It will take all the strength that I can summon not to put a blade in my pocket and take it to work with me.
Even with these 'steps back', could it be that the overall trajectory is 'upward', toward heating and recovery? I'm told that it happens that way sometimes. Wish for your sake that it could come more quickly.
ReplyDeleteThank you. I wish I felt better. Having a hard time at work...blades in my pocket...not to proud of that.
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