I watch Glee. I enjoy the music, the singing, the different voices and occasionally the humor. The episodes sometimes have a lesson or message intended for the younger audience. It may be related to bullying, texting and driving, etc.
Tonight's message (and by "tonight" I mean Thursday before the clock struck twelve) was about sexual abuse and the importance of telling someone it happened. Really, I watch this show to escape and forget about my own troubles. So, I did what I usually do in public when I encounter something way too close to home - I held my face expressionless, I tried not to react, and I did not breathe for about a minute.
On another part of the show, three young women were at a dance class, and they were recalling the moment as children when they fell in love with ballet. This one caught me off guard, and I could not help but react.
One of the women had been very out of touch with her childhood and had previously denied that she had even taken ballet lessons as a child. However, at the end of the episode, while she is at the ballet barre, she looks off to the distance and sees herself as a little girl in a leotard and tutu. She walks over to her, and the child tells her, "Don't forget me again." They hold hands and dance together.
Ouch...tears...tears...tears.
I wanted to dance with my inner little girl just like that - the one that I forgot last week and could not protect. I wanted to hold her and tell her that I would not forget her again, that I would protect her. I wanted to dance with her and let her know that I would keep her safe.
Ouch...ouch...tears...tears.
I cannot stop crying for her. I do not understand why these tears will not stop, but I know that they are for her.
I could use a session with my therapist right about now.
Ouch...ouch...ouch...tears...tears...tears.
I would bet that your therapist would tell you that the 'little girl' is finding a great 'friend' in your adult-you . That was a very compassionate , insightful , hope-full post.
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