Back to EMDR

I have not seen my therapist in...like a month. Too long. I've started to miss him.

Today I will see him again and probably return to EMDR. I am so reluctant to go through another session. It hurts...it just hurts. I am already feeling kind of down today, and I know what I usually feel like afterwards - raw and fragile. It takes me about three days to get a grip again.

Putting off EMDR is like putting off knee replacement surgery. It's going to hurt, but the longer you put it off, the longer you are going to limp around. After the surgery, you are going to walk a lot better.

I might build up the courage by this afternoon, but first I think I need to talk about this sadness.