I still have a hard time believing that good things can happen to me.
I have a hard time believing that it's OK for these good things to happen to me.
I have a hard time believing that the proverbial "other shoe" will not drop.
I have a hard time believing that things can be good without a price.
...I try to tell myself that I've already paid the price.
Is it possible that good things can just happen?
ReplyDeleteWhen bad things happen to good people, we often sigh and shake our heads and say "Life just isn't fair." But bad things just HAPPEN. Is it possible that good things can also just happen?
My view is that life isn't fair, and I am profoundly grateful for that. I have done things in my life that I am not proud of, and one could say that if life was fair, and just, I should be punished for them. But instead, I have grace, and good things happen in my life. I no longer question them - I'm just grateful.
It's beautiful to hear you say that, Lauren. Good things are happening to me, and I guess I am having a hard time accepting that there isn't some kind of catch, that something bad will not happen if I just relax and enjoy the good things.
DeleteThese are things that I have ben working toward and seem to be working out, yet I have a feeling that as soon as I grasp them they will disintegrate into dust...I have the "too good to be true" fear.
Kinda hard just to be in the "Right Now" . . .
DeleteYes, I guess that's what it is...it's hard to just be in the moment and enjoy it while it is occurring, without being apprehensive about what will follow.
DeleteI feel that way, too. When things are going too smoothly or I feel at peace with my emotions or health, I always feel like it will be short-lived. Cause it usually is! haha. But there is truth to what Lauren said. Both bad AND good things happen to us constantly. I suppose it depends what you focus on. I do believe certain people are luckier than some. But I also believe nothing is random. And as Anonymous said: Being in the right now is what's important, because depression is living in the past and anxiety is living in the future.
ReplyDeleteWell said T. I might have some anxiety about my bubble popping, but why not just enjoy the bubble while it is still intact?
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