Out of Sync

Well, I thought I was all set up to do another EMDR session today. I got enough sleep last night and knew that I would have plenty of time afterwards to write and process things before going to work...but that is not how things turned out.

I must say that I am the mother of avoidance, if there ever was one. I started out the session talking about something completely different, which I normally do anyway. I hardly ever go in there just raring to do EMDR. I usually have to warm up to that idea. But I knew when enough time had passed that I was either going to bring it up or not...I opted out.

Things have been going relatively well with my family recently, and we are going on vacation next week. I feel good today, and I was just too afraid to leave this warm shore to explore the unknown depths of EMDR. I guess sometimes I just need a reprieve from the pain, whether it is productive or malignant.

Maybe my therapist knew what I was doing when he said, "EMDR is out of sync at the beach." (He always knows what I am doing). He is right, and it was out of sync today. This week, I will prepare for a family beach trip. Next week, I will rest my body, my mind, and even my emotions.

When I shared with my husband this morning that I was planning for another EMDR session, he replied, "It will always be there; there's no need to rush with it." He's right...I have another appointment after I return from vacation.