Depression can really sneak up on you sometimes. Like when you are just trying to live your life, trying to keep up with the kids' schedules as well as your own. You are just doing all the musts and what-nots, and you talk to your kids. You respond to their questions, you give them directions...but they keep telling you that they can't hear you, they keep telling you to stop mumbling. You realize that you've been speaking at a level audible only to yourself and are keenly aware that you barely have the energy to project and repeat yourself. You're tired, you tell yourself, you should get more sleep...this has been going on for weeks.
Then, you drive fifty-five miles to a work location and realize that you've missed your exit and you're half and hour away from your destination. You will be late, and you want to cry. In fact, you try to cry, but you can't. You wonder where in the world your head was for twenty-five minutes!
You get to work...late...and are ready to burst into tears at any given moment. The entire shift, you want to leave...you want to sit somewhere quiet and private and cry it all out. You know it's coming, you feel yourself slowly falling...slipping, knowing you can't stop yourself...and you know that you're depressed.
As a temporary measure, would it be helpful to read some past posts?
ReplyDeletePossibly. At first I was afraid of going through old posts...I know how I write. After running through some of the titles, though, I found some that might be worthwhile. I'll start with "You've Come a Long Way, Baby", then maybe "Defying Gravity". Thanks.
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