Save me from this prison
Lord help me get away
'Cause only you can save me now
From this misery
'Cause I've been lost in my own place
And I'm gettin' weary
How far is heaven?
And I know I need to change
My ways of livin'
How far is heaven, Lord can you tell me?
Tu que estas en alto cielo,
Echame tu bendiciòn
Lord help me get away
'Cause only you can save me now
From this misery
'Cause I've been lost in my own place
And I'm gettin' weary
How far is heaven?
And I know I need to change
My ways of livin'
How far is heaven, Lord can you tell me?
Tu que estas en alto cielo,
Echame tu bendiciòn
(from Heaven, Los Lonely Boys)
"How do you get to Heaven?", inquired my six-year-old, "Like which part of you goes?"
"Your soul", replied her ten year old sister confidently, as if she had learned all that along with her mathematics and spelling words.
I fail to grasp how they can intrinsically understand such an abstract concept, yet I cannot explain to them how the amount of hurt that their father has caused me precludes me from ever loving him again. Yes, it means that I have to leave him. I can no longer live with him. This life is now a lie, and one can only live a lie for so long before one dies. How do I explain to them that I need to live the truth, and that does not include him by my side?
"I don't want you or Daddy to leave. I don't want anybody to leave. I'm afraid you guys are going to get a divorce", my ten-year-old told me as we finished our run yesterday. "Mommy and Daddy both love you" and "None of this is your fault" can only go so far. How do I explain a truth that she is entirely too young to hear?
You have spoken the Truth to her. Sometimes we learn by repetition, by repetition, by repetition, by . . .
ReplyDeleteThank you. I guess I sometimes feel like they just want answers, and the ones I'm giving them are not enough.
DeleteI haven't been a parent, so can't begin to imagine what you can say to children at such a difficult time in their young lives. You can only do your best to explain and soften the blow. Maybe it's something you can do gently over a period of time?
ReplyDeleteThank you, Cat. I assured her that, in due time, when she is old enough for this type of discussion, I will explain things more thoroughly to her. Unfortunately, at ten, this kind of answer only adds to your frustration.
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