You told me that you sometimes feel protective paternal feelings towards me. (You know who you are, kind man about my father's age). I told you that this was hard to hear, and I could talk about it no further.
Why was it so hard?
It was hard to hear that a man in that role would not abandon me or hurt me. My own father preferred the company of a myriad of other women to that of my mother and his children. My stepfather wanted to have sex with me...the damn sick fuck!
In my life, there are no men like you. When you say something like that, I can't even internalize it. I understand that good fathers feel that way towards their daughters, but not towards me. No one feels like that towards me.
I am overwhelmed by the tenderness of your words, and I cannot deny that I have at times wished you were my dad.
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