"That's where his power is.", my therapist said some weeks ago when I talked about my fear. I had just told him of my small victory in letting my STBX know that I did not want to hug him and I did not want to be held by him. Then, I felt the little ghost rise like a vapor. I saw it, and I spoke it out loud. "Still, in the back of my mind, I am afraid of his reaction to my words", I said. "That's where his power is", he replied.
So here I am, apparently still afraid, my wedding ring blistering my skin like acid. And after everything I've been through, I can still feel guilt and self-blame. Is it what keeps me from moving forward with the next step?
I have heard 'timing is everything'. We often do what needs doing when it's time to do it. What do you think?
ReplyDeleteI have heard that too...and I agree. I just don't understand why I feel like it's time, yet my feet are cemented to the ground!
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