Alone With My Sadness

In about thirty minutes, I have to be a mom. I will have to pull myself together and be the caring and attentive mother that my children need.

...but for now, I can just feel my sadness. I can just be downhearted and low. Behind my closed doors, I can be as gloomy as I feel without ruining anyone's joy. For now, I can close my eyes and feel hopelessness without having to find a way out of it. For now, I can sit on the floor and feel depression engulf me without having to do anything about it.