Deny this emptiness, this hole that I'm inside
These tears, they tell their own story
These tears, they tell their own story
You told me not to cry when you were gone
But the feeling's overwhelming, it's much too strong
Can I lay by your side, next to you, you
And make sure you're alright
But the feeling's overwhelming, it's much too strong
Can I lay by your side, next to you, you
And make sure you're alright
(from Lay Me Down, Sam Smith)
He sings like I write - with gut wrenching emotion. That's what attracts me to his music. He is wide open and brutally honest with his voice. Listening to him sing is like touching his soul.
I have not had the opportunity to write in quite some time, but the emotions are still in there, I have longed to write, to express...but I couldn't. In place of the writing, I had been listening to music...a lot of it. Today, I found myself singing "Lay Me Down" along with Sam Smith. Like him, I offered all my emotions as I sang, leaving nothing behind...to the point of tears.
I knew that this time it wasn't the lyrics that I was identifying with. It was the pain that he expressed that somehow touched something untouchable inside of me. There are feelings that I have been afraid to feel, afraid to explore, and his voice went there and fingered the precise strings that freed my tears.
I am still afraid to write these things down but am glad that at least there is music.
Sometimes there are sighs (and songs) too deep for words alone to carry the freight.
ReplyDeleteKeep listening !
Reading your post reminded me of a couple of Sinatra songs (if your generation remembers him ?!): "New York, New York" and "My Way". Perhaps not all the sentiments in each, but there are lines in each that seemed (to me) to resonate with what I understand as your journey and your great spirit.
ReplyDeleteThere is nothing quite like a sing-a-long for stirring all kinds of emotion. Pleased to hear you're doing okay.
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