My son has safely arrived at his destination. I am alone in his room again...and I will not allow myself to fall asleep. I will not turn the light off. I will not lay down. I will not close my eyes. I know that I will be exhausted tomorrow, but I cannot bring myself to perform this simply function...GO TO BED!!!
I am so tired that I know I will be fast asleep five minutes after closing my eyes, but I will not do it. I am on guard. This sucks.
I want to dance with my blades...that dangerous, sick dance.
He isn't coming, I know. No one will open my door tonight, and no one will visit me in my bed. Yet, I am afraid and will not lay down to sleep.
Good God, what will it take?
Safe hugs and love Rising. He is not going to hurt you. You are safe here and in the real world now. Rest your weary head and dream of winning races!! :) MMS
ReplyDeleteYes, sleep, delicious sleep...and in my dreams, I am a champion!
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